Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Sorry for the delay! (personal story)

This is the card I made for Sherry's great challenge over at A Muse Studio Challenge Blog to make your own background paper.  This is one of my favorite things to do with rubber stamping. 

Her challenge went live yesterday and I am late to the party :(  I am really sorry, I try to keep this blog positive and crafty and it has helped me remember to try and stay positive and happy.  Well this week my body has decided to give me a reality check.  In truth I fight every day with my body to do as I need done.  I suffer from a long list of chronic illnesses including Fibromyalgia.  Over the last 3 years I have been bounced around specialists and tried every treatment suggested but for some reason my body hasn't taken to any of them so I try to manage the symptoms that include but aren't limited to daily migraines, irratic sleep, intense IBS, severe muscle fatigue and pain, and extreme skin sensitivities.  Now this isn't something that happened over night since I was a little girl I was always sick but pushed past it with my need to be the best.  I have had many surgeries removing various benign tumors and cysts all over my body, yet I graduated on time and continued to college while I grew a great career.  I met Jeremy and he even become accustomed to my cycles of sickness (at one point I had pneumonia for almost 6 months but never missed a day of work).  Finally 3 years ago this month my body won and I had to leave my career and education for good (unless there is some miracle treatment that comes along).  Being a great employee, student, wife, and friend was so much of my identity that I still don't know who I am or what I am suppose to be doing.  A Muse Studio has helped me have a purpose and be good at something again.  I blog now, teach classes when I can and host parties on my body's schedule but last week even that was too much.  A maintenance guy from our new apartment decided to steal my medication so I have been without it for over a week.  I am not telling you this for pity as trust me I can't stand pity.  I do wish Social Security Disability would realize just because I am intelligent and for so many years persevered past all the road blocks put in front of me that doesn't mean I am super woman.  I would love to be the dependable, hard working, strong woman everyone (including myself) once knew but now I am tired, weak and have to depend on others more than I like.  I so miss the life I once had but am hopeful of the changes that I am going through now.  Anyway now that you have a summary of my current struggles, I deeply apologize for not holding up my commitment to the challenge blog and will try to make adjustments so this doesn't happen again.  Thank you for listening and I do hope you join us this week at A Muse Studio Challenge blog.

All supplies are A Muse Studio
Paper: Kraft, Sugar, and Blueberry
Ink: Sugar, Ocean, and memento tuxedo black Copics: BG10, R29, Y17 and black multi liner
Stamps: Holiday tags
Accessories: cherry/ white baker's twine, cherry twinkle stickers, swirls impression plate, trio tag die

3 comments:

Chelsea said...

Wow Samantha .... Your card is wonderful and you have such courage and strength. Not sure I could go through all that. How rude of your maintenance guy! Take Care!

silkeshimazu said...

I love your card and how you created your own background paper; the snowman is too cute!
Admiring you for your strength and sending well wishes your way!

Cheryl said...

Cute card! I love the stamped background.

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